If you asked me to describe the most marked difference between men and women in terms of character, this is what I would say: as a group women seem more able to pair gentleness with decisiveness, softness with assertiveness.
As a group, the men I’ve met are not so successful at this. There tends to be one or the other; not an imbalance so much as an absence.
Halfman and my current boss in particular show gentleness, softness and an utter lack of decisiveness. When decisions are made, they are entirely passive and so not decisions at all, but life getting fed up with waiting for them to make up their minds.
The Love of My Life was decisive, and thoughtful in many ways but not gentle. Not gentle in touch. Not gentle in treatment. I love a rough and tumble tackle into a. Snowdrift more than the Next Girl but I also like to be caught and held above the hard bottom of life once in a while. I want to be saved from knowing I can feel the pea under the mattress.
Because I already know it’s there.
There must be men out there – beyond the Prince Charmings I conjure in my head – who can combine the two things.
Maybe?